While this doesn't directly relate to me, it still makes my skin crawl and causes me to re-evaluate the superficial things in life.
My wonderful friend Anne Marie contacted me tonight because she was distraught and wanted someone to talk to.
Sadly I originally thought that maybe her boyfriend had broken up with her again, or that maybe it was exciting news and not sad news.
But then she sort of dropped a bombshell on me.
One of her close friends, and a very close friend of her boyfriend's had killed herself.
This in itself turned my stomach, but then she sent me another message.
She told me the girl had wandered down the train tracks until a train hit her.
This made me start crying.
I never knew the girl, but to think that someone would take their own life in this fashion tortures me.
What could have hurt her so deeply that she felt the people around her couldn't help her?
They say she was a beautiful girl with ambitions, a girl that everyone loved.
Looking at this situation makes think about how precious life is.
How easily it can be taken away, and how much pain it causes when it's taken away voluntarily.
I'm not meaning to rehash any feelings, incase anyone involved comes across this post.
But it's something that really made me think, and really made me come to terms with a lot of things in my life.
The superficial things shouldn't matter. What matters is how dear life is. You can live without gadgets, you can live without money. But you can't live a full life if you're hurting inside.
You need to let someone know. Let someone help you. Let someone save you from yourself.
So tomorrow when you look in a magazine and see an IPhone and drool over it, or when you see a new plasma screen and wish you could have it, take a moment to think about this girl and think about the fact that you're alive, and that you're happy. And that that's all that should truly matter.
I hope for you all to have my two good friends in your prayers, because I'm sure now more than ever they need it. This cannot be an easy time for them.
I'm sorry for such a grim post. Hopefully later today or tomorrow I can be back to my cheery self. But for now I felt this was too important to ignore.
I never knew her, but from what I've heard I wish I had. It sounds like she was a wonderful girl. Right now I'm worried about my close friends and how this is affecting them. I hope they will pull through.
I hope that wherever she is now, she's happier.
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